无语～

如果可以重新选择，我不确定。。那个人还会不会是你，
是不是日子久了，关心和心思已变得不再重要？。。
你总是对别人好过对我。。
到底是我太爱计较，还是你真的忽略了我。。
你答应过的，你忘了，我没怪你，但当我提起时，你总是有太多借口。。
既然你做不到，何苦当时答应得那么爽快？
我是人，不是东西，不是宠物。。不是讲过就算的。。
你好自私，自私得让我心疼，我连两瓶饮料都不如。。
对于我应该有的，你推三推四，可是对于别人你却那么的奢侈。。
我是女人，我也会嫉妒，我也会不爽。。
不要每次都问我为什么，不要每次都说我想太多，
针没有刺到肉，不会知道痛的滋味。。
如果还要我一而再，再而三的说出我心里的感受，
那么你的心和脑是装什么？为什么就不能自我反省？
总是要我这样，要我那样，可是你从没问过我其实心里的想法是怎样？
背着你，闭着眼睛，眼泪还是掉，除了痛，我还是痛。。
如果你已经不疼惜我，就放我走。。
我好累。。面对你，我真的很累。。。
千言万语，我挤不出还有什么字，能确实表达我的感受。。
我甚至想把戒指拿掉。。我知道我这样似乎很幼稚，
可是我不知道，这样的痛，我还能抗多久。。

what's wrong wif me~

i dun know what's wrong wif me recently..i m always jealous n suspect that he do something n keep secret wif me..i always have doubt...ppl said,be a couple,must 100% to believe each other..that is the way to keep relationship forever..i know that..n i try to do that..but i think im must b crazy..mayb he did hurt to me b4,so that now im hard to trust him..i m start to checking him,ask him what he do whole day..even im not calling always..but keep thinking what he doing now..juz like now,he call me said not come to find me,bcuz wanna find he fren to mention about business things..i totally believe what he said..but turn around,i m thinking that today have new worker a young girl come to work..i start to thinking dun know izit he lying me,the truth is that girl ask he out to thanks everything or other..OMG~shit..i m really crazy n think too much..over much..i juz realize that his had been important to me..i can't lose him..i can't..i dun know what can i do..i juz keep asking n asking..i know he will feel fed up..but if i din't ask,my heart is uncomfortable...really wanna change..change myself..change from doubt to believe...izit can easy to change?..i dun know..at least i have to start to learn it from now..